2008年10月5日01时30分

last day for National holidays，ultimatum for thesis paper。QQ上遇到了不该也不想遇到的人，心坎里多了不解也不能撇清的深沉……假期的终结有了诗意般的残缺美。

求职照和简历早已做好了，反复修改还是无法满意。不是处女座的我却有着吹毛求疵的癖好啊，加之友人们所调侃的我那轻度洁癖，这少数人的特质算不算件好事呢？推掉了假期的家教，去了趟共青森林公园忽悠一把烧烤，说白了就是烧钱。小姨子一个call询问经济近况，旁边的地痞表弟就一直插科打诨夸夸其谈，鸡皮疙瘩在抗议了。

该出国的出国了，该分手的也分手了，该找工作的开始行动了，该有份寄托的...迷惘了。阳台外飘起了雨，在这寂寥幽静的凄楚凉夜里，像是天外的轻声问候。搬来闵行一个月，还没如此透彻地凝望过这里的夜，也别是雨幕里变得模糊的灯火斑驳在风影中，让我失神。猛地自嘲一下，果然我不是一般人。呵呵。

【Falling】

Silence long lost friend
You've come to me again
Night comes closing in
And the lonliness within
I'm older- should be wiser
Still I never seem to learn

I'm closer than ever to the edge
And I'm falling- I am falling
From the world I use to know
Been tring to hold on for something for so long
Now this never ending dream wont let go
I am falling

Restless I lie awake
And try to escape
Memories that never sleep
Taste of bitter sweet
And I hold on to forever
Still I'm stuck in yesterday

I'm closer than ever to the edge
And I'm falling I am falling
From the world i used to know
Been trying to hold on to something for so long
Now this never ending dream wont let go

Come back and try to wake me up again
I can face this world alone
In my dream I return again
I am falling I am falling

I am falling I am falling
From the world I used to know
Been trying to hold on to something for so long
now this never ending dream wont let go
I am falling I am falling